Yeah ive been havin a very fun time lately [/sarcasm]

Yeah imma be complainin about how much of a bastard and an idiot i am, you can choose to ignore this if you want.

Well to start off, ive been sick for about the past two months straight, and not like a little cold sick, more like throwing up every half hour to an hour, and coughing out a lung. Its weird, i usually rarely got sick, but lately its been a different story. And ive discovered another thing about myself, i like to destroy my life, whether i know it or not. Take for example, lately ive started to realize that one of my close friends really likes me, and after realizing that i realized that i liked her back D:. After a couple of days i asked her out, and a while into it (about a couple of days) i realized again that i like her (i dont tend to make sense, because im a moron) and got scared and kept thinking about what would happen, so i sabotaged it because i was afraid, i did that by getting my old job back. I used the excuse that i needed to help pay the bills and such (which i actually need to do). That made her, my family, and my other friends really mad at me. Fun stuff

So i accepted my job, the day i got back from it i realized that my family, and friends were all ignoring me because i got my job back. The reason its such a bad thing is because people think that its leading me to an early death and a worn out body, which actually might be true. After i learned of them ignoring me i debated with myself whether i should quit my job again to try and get them to stop ignoring me, so i did, but the ignoring kept going on. So for a couple of days they have been ignoring me, and today (its either the third or fourth day of it) i decided that i wanted to try one more time to get my girlfriend to talk to me. During lunch, i walked up to her, and well its lunch time so there is people everywhere, right? Well as i said, i walked up to her, and for about 2 and a half minutes i tried getting her attention by poking her, tapping her on the shoulder, and talking to her. She apparently got fed up with it because next thing i know, she turns while holding her lunch tray really fast, and guess what happened next, her cup which happened to be full of fruit punch, and her little things of catsup came flying at me getting all over my new white shirt, my jacket, and most of my pants. She then walked away and i stood there, drenched in fruit punch and catsup, looking like the moron i am. Some more fun stuff for ya

Back to my job killing me, yea its prolly right, cause for the longest time i have been really, REALLY sick, and ive gotten odd pains in random places that have landed me both on the floor, and in the hospital. And i feel like an idiot, some times i cant seem to spell the easiest words, or remember a single thing, also ive been getting confused a lot lately.

So basically to sum it all up, im such an idiot, that my bastardness, fear, and stupidity has gotten the best of me many times, and basically is ruining my life. Im obviously not as cool as i thought i was once.

Yeah again, ignore me if im being annoying, after reading what i just wrote, i would want to ignore me too, i complain a lot :/ So read if ya want, dont if ya dont, i dont blame you. Sorry for being a bastardish moron, just wanted to get that out of my system, sorry for wasting your time with my gramatically incorrect, spelling error-filled, and moronified journal entry.
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Requests:

Sorry for me being a lazy arse, and having the requests beeing taking a lot of time, the start of school took up a lot of time, and im trying to do them in order, and the first one is an entry for Taerl's contest, im having a hard time on that because i dont really know her characters all that much, but i think i have an idea.